I was feeling a little down earlier and wished that I could talk to Anita about my feelings.
It occurred to me that why I wanted to do that was because it was that in the sharing of things with her that her acceptance of my problems not only gave me guidance and opportunity to flesh out my problems at a conscious level, it also gave me a sense of forgiveness and redemption in her acceptance. In her arms I felt at peace.
This too is something I have lost and yet another pillar I will have to build for supporting my soul in her absence.
Learning and pain so often seem to go together. Or is it pain and learning?